flight

it's happening to me.

i can feel the inbetween-ness taking over.

i am months away from making my debut to the world as a full-fledged degree-wielding human being. i live in this place of vacillating feelings between adulthood and adolescence. i live in a house with college graduates that have full time jobs and are responsible for themselves. and although i am the one writing the rent checks and calling the plumber, i still callmy mom when i need to buy hair spray or a jump drive to ask permission.

i can remember the confusion of life as a freshman. and even though my freshman year feels like a distant memory now,  i remember being there. i remember sitting on the steps of the library in the darkness of the early morning with my shoes off, just so i could feel the cold air burn my fingers and toes. i know now i wasn't ready for college at 18.

i'm a late bloomer, which is okay, it's fine. my college experience is one of those things that people say this to:

i wish i could go back and redo it differently, but i know that if it hadn't of happened this way i wouldn't be where i am today.

blah. sigh. we know.

i like where i am today. i do. but- i sense i will not be here much longer. life is an adventure, and the wilderness is calling my name. i don't know yet where i'm going, but the feeling of excitement i have when i think about life beyond these university walls makes me know i'm getting ready to go. it's like that feeling you get right before you dive off the high dive.

i'm almost ready to jump.

Comments

[Amanda]

will i hurt your feelings if i say the real world is over rated? if i tell you to stay in college for as long as possible?

but they great thing about you Hannah Gray, is that you have a passion for helping people and you won't settle for anything less. so I say, you will do great in the real world. and you have all of us friends waiting to catch you after you jump! :-)